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Friday, October 14, 2011

Baby Steps

All those stairs

 I just got up and I already want to go back to bed. Partially because I am still tired, but mostly because moving day is now less then a week away and I haven't yet begun to pack. I packed up some of the kids' toys last week but I haven't yet REALLY started to pack. Every time I try I stare at everything not knowing where to even start, then I get overwhelmed so then I just find something else to do instead. I just can't seem to wrap my head around the idea of moving again. I am very ready to be in our new home I just wish I didn't have to go through all the hassle of moving. It just feels like I JUST did it! It hasn't been long enough for me to forget what a pain it is. And this time we are really on our own to do it. Maybe that's why it's so hard this time. I just keep imagining me being the only person helping my husband lug heavy furniture up the stairs. All those stairs! What was I thinking?

I guess deep DEEP down inside I know things will somehow work out. I just wish I could convince the growing knot in the pit of my stomach of that.

I guess I just need to start somewhere. Baby steps, right? So, now it's time to get to work. I have some packing to do.


orangemily said...

Call the Elders quorum, there is no reason for you to do this on your own.
Good luck, moving is no fun - but the new house will be!

Liss said...

big huge hugs...and now you know why i don't even dare think about ever moving again because i have serious ptsd from the last 2 moves/remodels both in my last trimester of pregnancy. ACK!!!!

Holly said...

Ugh, I get it. When I get overwhelmed, I tend to shut down. I hope the baby steps will eventually get you there.