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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Fat or broke?
Plus I can SO easily rationalize my habit because, unlike some people who have shopping addictions, I only buy things we actually use. I saw a lady on Oprah once who had like 10 of the same shirts just in different colors. And you couldn't even walk through her house because she had so much stuff. I don't buy stuff just to buy stuff. I always buy things we actually need. Well, okay, I use the term "need" loosely. But I buy clothes for the kids and things for the house or sometimes I just go drop a wad of money on groceries at Costco.
But I'm what you might call a shopping bulimic. I go spend a bunch of money to make me feel happy but then later when I get home with all my goodies I start to feel bad about how much money I spent spend the next day taking half of it back.
At least that used to be how I dealt with stress. But economic times are turbulent. And although I LOVE spending money, and even though I try to convince my husband that I'm actually just doing my part to stimulate the economy, I also am a rational thinker and I pay the bills and I have put a self imposed limit on my spending as of late.
Which means I've had to find a new outlet for dealing with stress. And lately it's been food. I am not proud to admit this. Especially since we have been doing so well around here with the whole healthy eating thing. Before Christmas I lost 15 lbs. I've been working out rigorously. But sometimes chocolate just calls my name. I try to shun it. I try to ignore it. But I'm stuck at home. Because I can't go out anywhere or I'd end up spending money. And eventually, but late afternoon, I find myself giving in. Just a small piece of chocolate. Then maybe a bigger piece. Then to heck with it, I'll just eat the whole pan of brownies.
So which is the lesser of two evils? Do you think it would be wrong to take up a collection that would allow me to keep shopping?